Absolut Minima

Global Minimum. That is what I would call my life right now. I knew it was coming since a long time but I was too arrogant to accept it. Thought I was good enough to handle it but I cannot convince myself any more. There was a time when I actually did things rather than talk about them. When I was actually good at what I did than show off that I was. When I inspired people and cared about them than acting indifferent. Had the balls to take up a challenge and fail trying. I seem to have lost that ability somehow. I don't feel myself anymore. All that I am right now is a pretentious bastard living in an illusion. I am nothing but a disappointment to all the people who believed in me (including myself). I don't know if I will ever be myself again. But if I don't try, I know I never will.